Welcome to my world

¡Bienvenido a mi mundo!

In essence, this serves as a mere medium to illustrate the world that exists in my own head, through words and pictures that I fail to properly express in reality.

The name is Carmel. As the subject noun, a complementary adjective would be complex, and the verb that best follows is create. "Carmel is a complex being who loves to create things". Easy.

Religion & Ethics; High moral literature; European culture; Architecture; Languages; Travel; Theatre; Tennis.

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Friday, 15 June 2012

Josh Appreciation Post

Over a span of a mere 3 weeks, I have fell into complete admiration for a lovely man named Josh.

Why?

Listening to his songs made me realise the powerful mind he possesses in composing such masterpieces. Josh is not the typical composer, musician, sound engineer, or producer that the mainstream music culture has unfortunately evolved to. Oh, no. He is much more than that standard and beyond. He is perfection.

It is confronting to hear a part of his mind being amplified. I am still overhwelmed by how he manages to do this.

The musical concepts are marionettes, mercilessly under his power, seamlessly manipulated to immaculacy; the wonders of his creations are wonders of life itself. Change of key, altered tempo, belltone harmonies, intertwining pieces - the pressure of infinite techniques utilised amount to these audaciously purifying sounds. They are perfection.

Josh is perfection.
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Admittedly, he is quite a handsome man. Cute, sexy and funny all combined. I viewed enough Youtube videos to verify this. On behalf of his attractive personality, I present the following photos obtained from my neverending stalking of his unusually entertaining life.

P.s. Every time he sings gives striking arousals to the bone. Hell yes, it's a damn turn on.

P.p.s I can listen to his voice all day and all. Night. Long.


P.p.p.s. His band has made it as the official favourite in my whole life hours being on earth, beating The Maine and Search the City.

Wednesday, 25 April 2012

Connection

The past few days have been enjoyable.

Thursday 19th of April 2012, I was able to catch up with a few of my school friends (and a new member of which I had met that evening). Matt, Haein, Jedwix, Kathera and Sarah! They are clearly a great bunch of people, and when you spend a whole adventure-packed night with them, you know that it's one to never forget. Luckily, I finished my exam at 7pm before Haein's opening exhibition at this, well -at first glance- sort of dodgy building that was prepared at the joint of an ally way. Honestly, I was petrified in the thought that I had to walk there alone at night, but with the company of Jedwix who fetched me at the lights -you know- it wasn't that bad. In fact, you really can never judge a building by it's appearance because as I entered, I saw something that I'd never encountered before. A new sense of ambiance; it had this laidback atmostphere, complemented by the welcoming interior of the place. Random artworks were carefully situated in the corners and abstractly around the room - it was comforting. The lovely chairs were of random designs, which seemed to have been bought from several secondhand stores, but nonetheless fitting for the occasion; however, the exhibition itself, showcasing the various filmed animations upon the walls and group masterpieces grabbing the centre of attention, now that was astonishing. You walked in and BAM, each piece told of its own beautiful story derivative of their master. I liked the experience, quite truthfully. After little chit chats around the room (and may I say, I felt so high-cultured doing so, you know? Socialising and such with these noble artists), we reached the conclusing to end the night with a movie. The train ride on the way, of course, was just as exciting! I love train conversations. We spoke a lot about trivial things in our lives that, funnily enough, happened to ..connect us all. It's amazing the amount of things you cover in 1 hour or so. Unfortunately, Sarah and Jedwix had to part ways as they had their reasons and priorities. So Matt, Haein and I were left to watch the long-awaited Hunger Games. I LOVED IT! It was gory and incorporated key literature concepts, and I really admire that! I've learned to look beyond the overrated "ooo katniss-peeta" phase and understand the ideas of self-exploration, courage and justice underlying the story. We finished the movie at close to 12am but I couldn't care less at that time. I was just glad to have spent the evening with these lovely people.


Saturday 20th of April 2012, my family and I were invited to spend a 50th birthday with our family friend. Generally, when you think of family parties, you would think, 'Oh, great. Here comes all the greetings and conversations with uncles, aunties and their children that you've barely ever talked to in your life here on earth'. But, you know what? I decided beforehand to not let that perception fool the wonderful time I hoped to gain from it. Upon arrival, I made sure to greet the great man himself who reached another milestone, along with the other uncles and aunties invited. Then instead of sitting straight to the table where my sister and I were allocated, I grabbed her hand and hurried to the daughters of the celebrant. Mind you, I would NEVER do that. I usually expect them to talk to me first.. Yes, quite rude of me. However, some faint pump of adrenaline forced reason to do so. Best move, ever. We spoke to them -awkward at first- but eventually broke the ice and started laughing about Hunger Games, the skin of Asian people, what we've been up to and other interesting things needn't to be mentioned here. My confidence grew thereafter so I began connecting with the other teens that I barely socialise with. I met this guy named Clark, who turned out that he attends my sister's Youth (so, you know, they sort of caught on a cracking conversation). Afterwards, I engaged a lovely chat with Ruffie and Jocielle, two girls of whom I haven't seen since the 7 summers ago! My, they have grown. We kind of 'knew' each other from appearance, but never had the chance to talk to each other due to shyness. But, we got along at that instance. We never passed by the opportunity to talk about Harry Potter, Hunger Games and Twilight, it was hilarious. You know, they've seen a few famous athletes around their area? It's in Newcastle, so it says a lot. Anyway, I enjoyed accelerating the 7 years worth of conversations we've missed in a matter of an hour. To spice up the occasion, we each got a photo with each other from the Photobooth lovingly set up by the hired photographers. Props were also prepared and it was just all exciting! The photos will be great, I'm sure of it. At the end of the night, I could not let the chance of a cheeky dance slip by me. All I can admit to is that the music was great, er.. not so much my dance moves.


Sunday 22nd April 2012, a night that I will never, ever, let myself forget. Ever. It was planned to be a 'catch up' session with my two close friends as we always do ritually every month or so. Our conversations - my, oh my - they were BEYOND what I had expected to talk about. Initally, we had the usual 'uni/school/work/family/love/friends life' during the first hour or so. But then we ventured into deep philosophical meaning to our lives, critically analysing situations (real and hypothetical) and why this happens so. We shared our deep problems regarding aspects that we find hard to confide with anyone else, and we tried to gather solutions for each one of them. It was beautiful! They are beautiful. These are the friends I can call close enough to be my sisters. A dominant topic that very much circulated our conversations was our perspective on real love. No, I'm not referring to this pish-posh-wishy-wash, "He totally looked at me. He so likes me". I'm talking about pure love and its personal existence within our lives. We had our own theories to share, argue and debate about - and I love them for that. We are willing to go argue against each other's views on the intangibles and much of this world's mysteries, thereby educating and feeding our thoughts with another. Intellectual conversations are ones I love best. Nearing the end,we felt so connected in each other's presence that the overwhelming love we harbored released an impulsive idea: to travel the world together someday. This is real. Albeit out of impulse, I knew we had to make it reality one day. It seemed  something we all wanted to do. We were thinking of countries to visit, but considering  financial restrictions, we lowered it to 3 countries. Paula's choice was Monte Carlo, given that my Facebook residence said Monte Carlo, prompting her to make us all watch the movie Monte Carlo, and now reminscing upon that had her to choose Monte Carlo. Jewlz decided on Prague in Czech Republic; I don't have an idea why she said that, but I'm guessing she has always wanted to go there. As for me, I selected the Vatican City. Many would've expected me to choose Spain, France or England, but seeing as I've always been fascinated by my religious roots - or, well, had some conflicting views on it -, it was only fitting to visit there myself and see the magnificent Church and the faith of the people I know it to be. So, there it was: 3 countries to be sought after in the next 3~ years of our lives. Embarrassing as it sounds to do this in a restaurant, we each held hands so Jewlz could say a few words to formally establish our promise. She gave us each a polaroid photograph from her adventures in New York to remind us of this evening and as a keepsake for our wallets. Truly, words cannot express nor deny the love I have for the both of them. We will make this dream into reality and I will strive to reach my part of the promise. Besides, how fast can 3 years fly?


Monday, 13 February 2012

Valentine's Day

Is it just me, or have most significant days and holidays become more and more about the blossoming of new love?

For example, Christmas - the season for which we celebrate Jesus Christ's birthday but instead take more of an importance in who we will be "under the mistletoe" with; New Year's eve - celebrating the time of a fresh year added unto our lives, yet we cannot help but think who will steal our first "New Year's kiss"; Birthdays - a joyous occasion to signify one's growing of age, however we've gradually included the need to "kiss the closest boy/girl" whence the knife touches the bottom.

I don't know about you, but why have these 'special features' been added to what would be a momentous day? Have we really anticipated less about the traditional meaning and more on this speck of pish-posh? If so, I could only forward to the conclusion that so many people are depressed and unsatisfied with their lives because such expectations overshadow their ability to enjoy something that entails more than 'erotic love'.

So many of my friends recently are finding the need to have boyfriends or girlfriends, and I suspect it is due to this overrated, overly hyped nonsense triggering our focus. In my opinion, many look forward to those upcoming days because they sense they will be lucky this time around; when they realise that it was just as the same as last year, an emotion of disappointment overcomes them. What would that make of next year? There's 3 choices:
  1. Be hopeful again and expect a miracle that some dashing, young man will profess his love to you and you will ride off together on his Ferrari 458
  2. Have the complete opposite mindset and not look forward to the occasion
  3. Or simply, celebrate what the occasion is all about! 
Beyond all this "lovey dovey" trait underpinning those special days, I think most need to realise that it's not the end of the world. Maybe you need to be content with everything you have so then you can live a fully satisfying life. You should also expect less because not everything is a Hollywood movie. LIFE is what YOU make of it - YOU are your own director!

As for Valentine's day, that is a day you can express the notions of a New-Year-Valentine's Kiss, Cutting-the-Valentine-cake Kiss, or Valentine-Mistletoe Kiss. The only socially accepted day where excessive public display of affection is normal. And for all those who couldn't care less about tomorrow, you get a Cyber-5 from me. 

Thursday, 9 February 2012

Employment: Dedicated!


So, I have spent 3 hours of my life (10pm - 1am) working on my retail study notes. I'm loco, no?! Pero, soy una persona dedicado en todos aspectos de mi vida.

I logged back on the online training sessions, which I may add is the most helpful and creative online work training ever! (It's beautifully set out in suitable categories, quizzes, pictures, information, methods and the occasional demonstration videos. I can't fault it.) But anyway, I whipped out my usual Word Doc and listed everything down in categories that I hope to learn most tomorrow. The main topics written were about OH&S; cleaning products; chemical, physical and microbiological hazards; certain food handling and care methods; different sanitisers and cleaners and their use; a few cautions in the workplace; the several sections when making smoothies/juices; and the secondary duties of the team members.

Honestly, every time I am employed, I do my best to train myself through memorisation and background knowledge. I only do it because I want to offer the best I can to the company. I don't want to be lazy, I want to be proactive. Nor do I want them to regret hiring me in the first place. I'll never forget what the manager said to me during the interview, "Working in Boost Juice is one of the best experiences ever; when one leaves from us, they regret leaving in the first place because it's so much fun to work in". He was really nice and I trust his word for it. But together with all the charisma and hype, I also want to physically put in worthy effort to produce their top quality products.

My first training shift starts on Saturday and I'm part nervous and part excited--anxious! It's during the 'off peak' hours, so it's less stress. I'm really hoping I impress them with my skills and the things I've learnt during the course of the training.

Simply, it comes down to God. I'm thankful that He's given me this opportunity to work for such a reputable company and now my service can be given back to Him for the greater glory.

Yay! Wish me luck :)

Dirty Little Secret

You know those days when you find out about someone and it's something that is just horrifically detestable and promoting something you're heavily against?

Well, today was one of those days.

I caught up with one of my good friends and we were just deeply in the topic of "drinking to get drunk". She let slip of a certain someone who did the very act... and little did she know, it was someone I care about. 

It's just absolutely disgusting! I would never have thought for them to be one so easily tempted like that. When one has the chance to get rowdy at a party, they can either take control over the situation or let the situation take control of them. It's unforgivable to me, for something that I can't have associated with in my life or the partner I expect to be with.

Let me first explain why I'm so against this. I was exposed at a very young age to the effects of drunkenness and I was terrified to what I witnessed. I was only 8, but I saw how quick the person/s changed in a matter of hours. Their personality was different, they slowed in speech and they were scary in my opinion at that time. When they vomited, it was... just.. not a sight I wanted to see. I could never see them the same way. Of course, I can handle when a person gets drunk these days; but my perspective of them will be altered and I most likely will disappear from their sight because I feel no obligation to take care of them at that state. In short, my outlook on drinking was molded at a very young age. I, myself, do not drink and I can't have a partner that drinks either. It's an absolute negative. I know it will be hard to find someone with the same view, but if I do, I swear I would marry him there and then.

I'm really disappointed. But, I guess, people disappoint you sometimes.

Wednesday, 18 January 2012

UTS: Business School



I made it into the Bachelor of Business at University of Technology, Sydney!

I'm so overwhelmingly happy! I have a strong foundation on what my future is going to look like.

Okay, now a huge ass essay on my feelings and prejudgments about this whole situation.

B of Business was my 2nd preference and I did not expect to get in. I expected my 3rd preference would be the course I'd have for the next 3 years. For this reason, I went to all the Macquarie open days, read their information leaflets, and spoke to them online to get a clear vision of my future. As you may know, Macquarie Uni is a 1.5 - 2hr travel time via public transport; in contrast, UTS is a mere 51minute - 1 hour travel. Even with this, I had already expected my fate to be with Macquarie. I even knew what electives I was going to take.

But surprisingly, when I saw this:








I was completely boggled, surprised and in deep shock that I made it into UTS!!!!!! It was 'skim reading' - technically - but I saw the main words and I whimpered to myself, "oh, my god..". I read it again in reassurance, and before you know I it, I sprang off my seat screaming like a maniac, fidgeting and jumping across the whole house. I was crazy! When my mum called my dad, I could barely talk to him from all the excitement. I bet the neighbours heard my "OH, MY GOD", "THANK YOU GOD", "UTS!!!!!!" (x 10000000). LOL.. this sounds wrong haha.

After all the doubts, the frustration, the lack of belief and faith, I cannot believe it has turned out right for me. I truly feel in my heart that this was God's blessing for 2012 for me - and even so that it may be His plan for me to do this. He gave me the opportunity to study in my favourite university, ever since year 9. It just feels far too positive to be wrong!

Taking on this new challenge for myself, I will do my absolute best to produce clean results. It's a 3 year course and the timetable is exceptionally spread out. I only have to go to uni 4 days, for approximately 3 hours, and generally within 10am-3pm with a break. I don't know what I want to major in yet, but I have a great feeling about this University course! :)


Tuesday, 17 January 2012

"Shit Spanish Girls Say"


As a student studying Spanish, I have a certain fascination on learning the Spanish Culture. Regardless of whether this depicts a true painting of it, it is such an entertaining video to watch!